Posts in grief
Gender disappointment

I thought to myself, if I find out the gender now and it happens to be a girl, I WILL feel disappointed. On some level. For some reason.

But it wasn’t the disappointment I was worried about. It was the guilt of feeling disappointed that I knew was sure to follow that really deterred me from finding out.

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Interview with a doula!

“Unlike a husband, mother or friend, doulas are professionals who devote their lives to supporting women during this vitally important time in their life and they have lots of knowledge about different birth options. Doulas bring with them the experience of seeing a wide array of different birth outcomes so they are flexible, rather than rigid, in their expectations. They do not bring into the birth room any fear of birth, or their own personal history with the birthing woman which may impact on her birth.”

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Our Journey - Loss, homebirth and a valuable lesson on regret...

"I was alone at an ultrasound, with no one to hold my hand, when the sonographer put his hand on my arm and simply said “I’m sorry…”, I thought, sorry for what? He said it as though there was only one outcome.

It was the most definitive answer I had been given my entire pregnancy, it just wasn’t the answer I was searching for."

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